Motherhood is not for the faint of heart.
Motherhood is not for the weak.
Motherhood is not for the perfect.

Motherhood IS for the strong heart.
Motherhood IS for the brave.
Motherhood IS for the broken.

When I was a little girl all I wanted to be when I grew up was a mom. I found myself constantly playing house, playing with dolls, taking care of anyone younger than me (whether they wanted to or not…it’s a miracle my sisters didn’t lash out more), and my heart yearning for a family that I would have one day. What I wish I could go back and whisper to that little girl is, “Don’t grow up to fast. Hold tight to the baby dolls. Enjoy TODAY and NOW. Your time will come.”

Now here I am in my mid twenties with 2 precious babies that are MINE! I am a MOM. The title “Momma” is my favorite title I wear. It is also the most challenging. From diaper changes to late night fevers. From snacks on the go to spontaneous cuddles. From the numerous bottles in the sink to loads of laundry. From the “why’s” to the being smothered with kisses. From car seats to Mickey Mouse.

Motherhood is wonderful and hard all at the same time. The best thing? I’m not alone! God is right there every step of the way. He is there in the cuddles. He is there in the diaper changes. He is there in the dark when it’s just me and the baby. He is there when I loose my cool. He is there when I’m not my best. He is there on the hard days. He is THERE!

I have my good days and my bad days. And the best news is God wants me on my good and bad days. He wants my smiles, my joy, my frustration, my anger, my HEART. He wants it ALL! I don’t have to get my act together to be accepted – I am accepted the way I am – mess and all!

Today I feel God saying, “I’m here. Just come. Let me hold you when you feel like you can’t go anymore. Let me be your strength when you are weak. Let me be your joy when you have none. Let me be your cheerleader when the to do list has gotten way to long. I’m here. Just rest in me.”

Let that sink in your heart. He is there when you’re alone. He is there ready to love on your heart. He wants to help you – let Him.

Here’s to the Mommas who want to have it all together, but don’t. Here’s to the Mommas who love their kids and want the absolute best for them. Here’s to the Mommas who just can’t go anymore. Here’s to the Mommas who love being Momma.

God is there. He is meeting you where you are now. Lean in so you can hear His heart beat. Lay back and let Him hold you. Just be held today.



Safe in His Arms

As I was holding my beautiful, almost 3 week old, baby girl last night, she looked up at me and just smiled. It was a smile that melted my heart completely. It was a smile that said, “I love you mom.” It was a smile that showed she was happy just where she was. It was a smile that showed she felt safe in my arms. It was a smile that made me want to just freeze time.

I began to think about how much Abigail Hope relies on me. She relies on me for food, shelter, comfort when she doesn’t feel good, comfort when she cries, etc. I see in Abigail’s face when I hold her how she feels safe. She knows that when mommy holds her everything will be ok.

I began to think, do I rely on God like Abigail relies on me?

Do I let God hold me in his arms and assure me everything will be ok?

Do I smile at him with the smile that says I’m happy?

God is holding open his arms ready for us to jump in and let us fully relax and trust Him. When we are in His arms, life will be tough, but we just have to look up and smile at Him because He will protect us.

God will fight for us just like I will fight for Abigail. However, God can’t fight for us if we are to busy fighting for ourselves. Run to His comforting arms today and let Him rock you to sleep in His peace.